true anger. scabs.

September. 2. 2010

[Rants by: 4 people]

We’ve all been mad to some degree. Some get mad easier than others, some get mad more often than others. I myself am a pretty hot-headed person and I get irritated pret-ty easily, but never did I get genuinely mad. When I say that, I don’t mean the “about to kill the first person you see” type of mad.. and I thought that was the worst type possible. Nope, because even if you do feel that way, you probably won’t actually kill someone.

Recently, I’ve finally gotten past that “kill everything” level and reached the ultimate level of madness. I won’t get into detail about what happened, but all I know is that being that mad felt scary. Basically, when someone is continuously yelling at me with gatling words, I usually don’t say anything until they’re done – and if those words hit my core, then I start tearing a little. It’s natural for me. It was like that until I suddenly felt really light. I heard someone yelling at me, but I didn’t know what they were saying – the words were going out the other ear. Or maybe I did know what was being said but I just didn’t care anymore. I felt like an empty shell, empty enough to think I had no soul… or something or other xD I really had no thoughts or emotion, though. And as you might know, no emotions = the worst thing in the world to me…so I was pretty scared after I realized what happened.

Fact #1: Once I get that angry, I remain emotionless and will rarely talk until the other person admits they were wrong.

Fact #2: Even with my void-of-all-emotions face, I’m still a readable person and you can easily tell what I’m “feeling”.

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I was thinking about it the other day when I realized that friends can stay together for decades whereas relationships can wither in as little as a week. You can even have a friend you haven’t seen in 5yrs and only talked to via fb or chat and still be close the next time you see them. If this happened in a relationship, it’s a sign that the end is near. What makes friendship so strong (excuse me for my lack of question marks, but my keyboard is being retarded)

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One thing I found funny was when my writing class was talking about burning the (American) flag (god knows why, but I totally would join). Usually, it’s a topic where an American would say “how dare you burn the flag!!!” but my class and my prof were just like “I don’t give a shit” XDDD I personally don’t. I don’t know why everyone else doesn’t care, but for me, it’s like this: the flag is a mass produced image and the flag itself is a piece of fabric….yeah it has its important symbolism but it means different things to each person…..moreover, burning the flag to me is the same as burning a shirt and as long as you don’t end up burning your neighbor’s house in the process, it doesn’t matter. Cold, aren’t I xDDD it’s just a result of disliking this country. You can think of the flag as important as you want to, I’m not gonna stop you from that. It’s just that to me, it’s not all that important. The flag itself is very important, but not a mass produced version of it.