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it’s official. YOU SUCK.

Sunday, November 14th, 2010

It’s official that I’m amazing ;] puhahahaha well it doesn’t really matter to me whether people think that or not. Does it really? All I have to do is just continue doing what I have to do and being awesome. It doesn’t have to be known…..although it’d be nice XDDDD

And another thing before I start: yeah, changed the layout XDD sorry if it’s too simple for some people, but I love simplicity. In like…..everything XD clothes, food, yadda yadda. So yeah. Any more info about the layout is in the “the site” page since I update that every time I have a new layout ;]

So this will be another one of my “stream of thought” posts. Ready? GO!!

So yeah I was talking to this “other person” about presents and flowers….god knows how it got to that. But anyways, I told them about what I personally thought about giving flowers as gifts or whatever. If someone gave me flowers as a present, I’d seriously feel insulted. Don’t get me wrong, I love flowers, but only when they’re actually rooted to the ground and alive. Once you wrap them up and give them to someone, by the end of the day, they’re already either starting to die or halfway there. And a decent bouquet these days is like what, $20…..so you’re basically paying $20 to get me something that’ll die. I really really don’t like seeing flowers die, it kind of makes me depressed. So yeah, I don’t like getting flowers as if they’re supposed to make me happy about how momentary they are. One thing I like doing though is taking single petals and putting them in books and never taking them out for like another 5yrs. And then laminating it. I wonder where I got that from…….well EITHER WAY XD I digress…..but yeah that person was just like “well people use flowers for giving respect for funerals, so you really shouldn’t be saying that” and I’m just like “we’re asian, we give hella better stuff to the dead than frakkin flowers like actual food and BEER….I don’t know where the hell that tradition came from, but we have it so LET’S USE IT” XDD

And that kind of (I guess?) leads into my next thought: how people think I’m some kind of radical or rebel. I don’t really consider myself as a rebel….it’s not like I’ve done anything controversial worthy of the public’s attention. Well at the same time, that’s not what one has to do to be a rebel, I guess. Still. I still don’t think I’m a rebel. It’s just that I somehow started to think about life from an early age and just kept on thinking and thinking. While most other kids were worried about cooties, I was worried about my purpose in life. I just think of a lot of things differently from a lot of people. Maybe I’m weird/eccentric but I’m not….a rebel….what? And I know I’ve kept a lot of opinions to myself until now, but….seriously? Before people used to bitch about how I never said anything and now that I do say some things, they bitch at that, too. You’re just upset cause I’m not telling you what you wanna hear. Well, too bad. You’re not gonna hear what you wanna hear and you’re not gonna be treated the way you wanna be treated. The world is a place full of twisted realities and ideas and it’s hell not fair at all. It’s being run by humans, of course it’s not fair.

And that somehow leads into the next topic: reality. Well, more like how I think truth and reality are different. I mean I guess you can use those words interchangeably in some situations, but I realized that I don’t like to do that. To me, reality is something that exists in each of our minds. Everyone has their own reality and as some of us might know, some people like to skew reality to their twisted favor. They create their own mental world and drag other people into it, making it like a mental prison for others. The truth on the other hand, to me, is the underlying layer of facts and whatever else. Many people might not really know that the “truth” is, but it’s still there and will never change. You can believe whatever you want, but that won’t change the truth. However, you can change your own reality and try to make yourself and others believe otherwise. If that even makes sense XD

Now this isn’t really that related to the previous topic, but it popped up in my head anyways so here we go. This is for all the people out there who came out of a relationship. If you feel like your ex has left some kind of gap in your mind/heart/soul/whatever, honestly, there is absolutely no need for there to be a gap. I’m not saying this cause I’m like cold or anything. It’s just that I’ve gone through the whole feeling-the-gap phase for a while without really telling anyone and then I slowly realized that there was really no reason for me to feel so empty about this person. Mainly because that person was only there for a short period in my life. Well for some people it might not be so short, but still, if that person wasn’t like there ever since you were little and it’s not like some cute story about childhood friends being together, then you don’t have to let them control you even after the breakup by feeling emptiness. You’ve lived quite a number of years before you met that person and you’ve done fine without them. You obviously weren’t that “happy” with them if you ended up separating so you can just continue on the way you were before you ever met them. I mean, in my case, I really was happy, but …eh, I’m over it XD I’ve lived all the way up till now without him, and I can sure as hell move on without him. There’s no reason to feel empty or lonely. Cause you never are ^^

Well that’s it for now ^^ and to make this not-too-boring, here’s what I’m working on as the cover of my cards binder. Yeah. I’m serious. I have a binder for all my cards. And I believe I have like…..700+ cards XDD and counting…..AND COUNTING…..but yeah. Here ya go. Have fun. Use it if you want, I really don’t mind XD

[one of my first few attempts at drawing Yami in KAGAMI style XD]

Of course it’s not done yet since I haven’t colored it, but I don’t wanna color until I get a tablet. I really think I’ll do amazing things once I get a tablet xDD better than using a mouse all the time x.x dammit I used to have epic skills in using ms paint to draw things, with a regular mouse…..where did all that goooo

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I’m bad Ash. And you’re good Ash. You’re goody little two shoes, goody little two shoes, good little two shoes hahahahha goody little two shoes, good little two shoes–”

Tags: asian, friends, love, ygo
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Asian hate

Monday, May 3rd, 2010

I understand, and yet I don’t……..how Korea, Japan and China have this hatred towards each other. And when I was little I was THIS close to being brainwashed into hating Japan and China. Before I get into the actual topic though, I just wanted to think about how I never knew that Pokemon or even freakin Naruto was Japanese until I started learning the language. So weird…..and I was almost made to hate countries I knew nothing about. Anyways, on with the ranting….
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Tags: asian, wtf
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Wow, 2010

Monday, January 4th, 2010

The first decade of the millennium has already ended…..I just had to say it the epic way XD but really, a whole decade has already gone by and I’m in college now I feel so olddd ToT I remember when it was 2000, I was like what, 4th grade? GAAHHHH XD

Forgetting about the new year for a while, it’s time to look back on the past decade and see what we’ve accomplished. Let’s see…..a pointless war, lots of paranoia + xenophobia, and many celebrity deaths around the whole freakin world. Can we look at the positive things for a moment =.=” well we’ve advanced in technology as if we went through a time warp. Like seriously. Even in like 2004, cell phones were monochrome, fat and all with antennas. Now we got touchscreen smartphones popping out left and right. Macs back then were cutely round and colorful desktops. Now they’re seen as the epitome of computers. MP3 players had like 256mb (or whatever the number was) of memory, was bulky with no color screens and the like. Now we have things like the iPod Touch with 32GB stalking us. It’s been tech-crazy this decade.

Moving away from the techness, at the end of the decade, we have elected our first “black president”. I’m not going into the whole technical thing about how he’s not all completely black, it doesn’t matter. Honestly, how many people would’ve known that? Even I didn’t know before until people started yelling it out as if they were protesting…..bunch of losers *rolleyes* seriously though, the “majority” of America has finally looked past skin color. Racism is seriously an old habit and is just UGH now, but that’s a whole other rant for another time x]]

In terms of fashion, that’s certainly been a fun house, too. 80′s fashion is creeping around again and Asia has officially gone awry with ideal boyfriends being a guy that’s prettier than his girlfriend. Which I don’t mind. It’s funny, actually. My only complaint is that girls have become rape magnets but that’s their problem, not mine.

Now in terms of music, it’s just gone DOWN. In the early 2000s, music was mad good, even in America. But now, not so much. Unless you’re like those rock bands *cough cough Linkin Park cough* or like Lady Gaga (also gonna be another separate topic), you just aren’t gonna stand out. Some of the long standing artists like Kelly Clarkson and Beyonce are also respectable and still going strong with worthwhile songs. But the new artists popping up are just like ugh stop making my ears bleed. Even in Asia, they’re resorted to nothing but repetitive club and ballad music. They don’t really praise (or just even accept) things like rock. I’m not just saying that cause I like rock (it’s the BEST XD) but in general, a country made up of nothing but dance and ballad isn’t really that great. You need diversity in music, too~~ a great mix is always awesome ;P I just don’t understand why Asia (alright, well…..KOREA to be more specific, since China and Japan are like rock rockkk) doesn’t like rock so much. I mean, they act all “excited” when there’s a rock band, but really, none of their faces really say “I’m liking this”. And there are some really great rock artists in Korea that I love. It’s really a shame and a waste =.=;; what these people really wanna see is more pointless girl groups and club music that has no meaning whatsoever.

Getting off topic xDDD ….but yeah. From my point of view, decade hasn’t been the best in general, like global-wise. As for my personal life, it’s been the time in my life that had the most change cause it’s when all the graduations happened and when all the core friendships were made and when I went through all the teen drama XD life-wise, it was awesome ^^

Tags: america, asian, fashion, new year
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asians – the korean mentality

Tuesday, November 10th, 2009

I’ll make it nice and clear: Koreans are a bunch of racist bastards =_____= no I’m not ignorant or stupid when I say this, I’m dead serious. [come on, I'm one myself, that should tell you enough xDD]

I just had a discussion with my mom and it somehow lead into Korea’s society. No country is perfect, but Korea’s just so screwed up mentally. Really. It’s starting to make me ashamed to be a Korean. At first, I was just like “yeah I’m Korean” and that was it. But now it’s like “ew I’m Korean ugh”.

ASSUMPTIONS

Why? Well we ended up talking about the whole thing with 2PM and Jaebum and how the people were trying to make him apologize. For those of you who don’t know the whole story, Jaebum grew up in America and therefore doesn’t see Korea like native Koreans do. Before he debuted, when he came to Korea (like 4-5 years ago), he commented online TO A FRIEND via friggin MYSPACE about what he thought about Korea and it was something simple. It was basically “korea is gay” (I’m with you), but some idiot found that, took it the wrong way, and put it all over the internet and people were divided into: those who think it’s unfair for such an old matter to be dragged out now and those who think it was a shame for him to say bad things about Korea. And as we were talking about this, I was just like “how retarded can Korea get?”. I’ve heard many cases kind of like this that shows how Koreans regard foreigners. They may act all excited when they see one, but in reality, NO. Like really, whatever he wrote was YEARS ago. He should be able to say whatever he wants. The thing with Korea is that everyone goes along with what everyone else does. A sad example: in an elementary class, everyone has a nice $50 purse and a phone whilst one little girl there doesn’t have a phone and just carries a plain old bag. That little girl gets picked on until she gets a nice purse and a phone. Native Koreans are so friggin superficial now it’s not even funny. Back to the Jaebum thing, he was saying that during his training in Korea so perhaps he was stressed out. These netizens didn’t even look at the context/story and just assumed that he was dissing out Korea.

There was another thing a while ago about this singer (mom couldn’t remember his name) but he also spent quite some time in America and then became a singer in Korea. He said like a teeny little thing that wasn’t happy (don’t know what it was about) and people were like “go back to America” and I’m just like that’s friggin unnecessary and RUDE. I just seriously can’t take this bullshit anymore. It’s ridiculous. Koreans are so friggin patriotic. It’s like if there was a tragic event like a typhoon or something, they wouldn’t care UNTIL on the news they hear that ONE Korean person died. Then they’re like all over the issues like “oh no, a Korean person was killed~!!!” …..STUPID. I’m pretty sure there are many people in Korea that aren’t full-blown patriotic, but for the most part, the Koreans there just go mad od about their country. It’s good to be patriotic, but don’t take it to the point where you end up hating anyone else who isn’t from your country or anyone who doesn’t think like you, it’s so damn retarded and makes GOOD Koreans look bad. I bet if I went there right now and ranted like this about Korea they’d wanna kick me out and my name would be all over the papers. Dead serious.

DOESN’T CARE

Korea never focuses on the national issues, they care about all this minor crap. Seriously, we were also talking about how Korea just accepted the fact that some sea around Korea (whatever it’s called) is Japanese and not Korean when according to all the historical stuff there, it clearly states that it is Korean, but Korea’s just like “ok you can change it” and now America’s history books are being changed so that this sea is now Japanese and not Korean. Now I got nothing against Japan, of course. But Korea has a history of taking shit from everyone and not doing anything about it. Racist AND weak. WTF.

Sorry, but one more little story and this is a little more recent. Yes, it’s about the swine flu. It’s been hitting Koreans quite a lot lately. Even if you just travel between Korea and Japan, you’ll get it. So it’s pretty serious. I’ll tell you how serious. More people are dying there than here and they got less people than us. That’s not even the sad part. There are so many students being infected and dying (sounds like a zombie invasion). Now in the US, if like let’s say 5 students were infected, they’d be forced to go to the hospital and they’d close the school until everything was sterilized. It’s a little paranoid, but at least it’s not gonna spread this way. But in Korea, where they’re getting more sick, the schools are all like “no, we must keep the schools open so that the students can study”. Ok now. What does that sound like? Does it sound like it’s really for the students or for their own selfish needs? If they think forcing them to study is gonna make the country smarter, well guess what? IT CAN’T BE SMART IF YOU HAVE NO ONE. You dumbasses. The funny part is, in Korea, if you so much as cough, they’ll look at you weird like you’re a freak. And yet they’re like this. Oh the irony. But finally, the Korean parents are starting to complain about this. Couple years too late for that, don’t you think? They are not taking this as seriously as they should. And yet they worry about matters like song composition, like WTF?? Who cares about that when your youth is dying off??? WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?? WAKE. UP.

HOOOO my stress has been vented out now……but I seriously won’t be calm until I actually get to go to Korea and write an article in the news about how retarded Korea is.

And sorry for all the fonting and colors xD

Tags: 2pm, asian, wtf
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asians – parents

Monday, November 9th, 2009

Most of us have probably heard that asian parents are too strict, they care too much about grades and they steal every free napkin they can get their hands on. It’s all so sadly true xDD well, it varies slightly…..

It is true that asian parents might be strict, and that ties in with the fact that they want you to get good grades. Now that depends. If they just came from asia, they’re still gonna have that asianness in them. If they’ve been here for quite some time, they’re more chill and understanding. Take my mom for instance. The only reason she used to be push me is because I got good grades on my own (and that’s cause the teachers practically threw 90s at me xD). But after I started doing bad, my mom simply went “as long as you pass everything and graduate on time, I won’t complain”….LIES XD she complained about everything BUT my grades =___= well anyways…..

Asian parents in general have to RELAX. They care waaaay too much. So much, that they start to get a bit annoying. Yes, it’s the parent’s job to care and make sure their kid is doing well, but that doesn’t mean you have to be like all over their case all the time. Give them a little freedom cause the kid has a life, too. Not everything is about grades. If it was, ….o m g xD this is why asian kids get suicidal so much more easier and even I understand this cause I used to be all od about my grades. Now, I just don’t care XD but really, the way these parents are pushing their kids (making them go to afterschool and even weekend school), it makes them feel like crap if they get a 99. It’s like a shame to the family or something and I’m like “no it’s not, cause a 99 is damn hard to get and you better appreciate your child for being so smart and trying hard for YOUR sake and not their own”. Really. And you know, they want their kids to become doctors or lawyers or anything else that’ll cost a lot of money and time cause those professions make you look good and pay pretty well. Now, is that out of the parents’ selfishness, or your own dreams? They should be able to pick whatever major they want as long as they’re passionate about it. That’s my philosophy.

Another thing I noticed about asian parents is that when their kid is suspected of doing something wrong, or just not doing well, they go all in denial like “oh my kid would never do that” or “my child would never be like that”. DE-NI-AL. And then when they’re alone with the kid they start yelling at them. And when their friends come over they start bragging. I never understood that. Seriously. Be honest. Friggin two-faced.

I don’t know, asian parents get on my nerves sometimes, it’s like watching a really typical drama. It’s so annoying. And you know what they’re gonna say and do. And that makes it even more annoying. You just wanna strangle them and be like LISTEN BIOTCH >o< they're so friggin stubborn, too~ I don't know if asians are stubborn in general (I think they are XD) but haven't you ever seen like two asian people and like one of them gives the other money or something and they're like "here I'll give you some money, take it" and the other one's like "no no no it's ok I don't need it" and it goes back and forth. I'm standing there going “if neither of you want it I’ll be more than glad to take it instead” XDD really now, they just UGGGHHHHH

My failed attempt at ranting about asian parents XD there’s A LOT of videos about asian parents……of course, by small asian comedians. And they’re all mad funny, but also somewhat true. HILARIOUS.

Tags: asian, parents, wtf
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asians – teens

Sunday, November 8th, 2009

I’m an asian…..who is about to complain about other asians XDD only cause I know how asians work (cause I live with them and have asian friends) and I don’t consider myself a “complete” asian, I mean, I was born here and I’m like a good balance of both asian and american…..stuff…..if you know what I mean.

So yeah, to start it off, this is the one about the TEENS. I will be TOTALLY honest about this: a good 50% of asian teens are friggin OBNOXIOUS and more than half of those obnoxious asians are GIRLS. I’m sorry, but asian girls are just so annoying >o< it doesn't matter if you're really asian or really american, they both got their own set of cons. First, the really asian ones:

* they give american-asian girls (or any american girl) dirty looks…..really now, wtf is up with that?
* they talk in their language assuming that you don’t understand them but in reality you do (and get them back by yelling at them in their language XD)
* they stick with their own kind…..I know very few who actually go out and get diverse friends
* the really skinny ones are OD and put on way too much make up, like friggin CLOWNS
* they talk so much shit about other people and are disgusted by those who aren’t like them…..W T F H

And now the american-asians:

* the white-washed ones, I got no comment for…..ok no, news flash, you really are asian, your eyes tell it all xD
* they try to speak their own language and FAIL (maybe it’s the family’s fault for not teaching =___=….but some of them do try)
* a lot of them are mad slutty >o< it's not like the "normal" clothes like the thin tees with skinny jeans, it's more like a band of fabric wrapped around your top =_=
* they also go friggin od on make up

Mhmm. I’m not on anyone’s side. Both sides have their bads….and some goods, I guess. But the bad always outweighs the good in this sad world xDD

I know I’m being really harsh on this one. Even as I was writing this I was like “I’m a total bitch when it comes to asians XDD”. Keep in mind, though, this is from a lifetime of observation. The neighborhood I’m in consists of both really asian people and american-asians. Even the school I used to go to was like that, it was CRAAAAZZY. I’ve never gotten so tired of being around asians before O.o I used to like being around asians cause they looked like me, but I started getting more friends that were like……not asian so I kind of drifted away from the asianness.

Also, the really asian ones tend to hate me with just one look. They’re mad judgemental. In the beginning, I don’t really have any bad intentions, but the way they look at me and talk about me just makes me not wanna give them a chance. Like how I’m always writing in Jap because I wanna practice, but these girls think I really am Jap and start talking shit about me. Now I understand if you mistake me for a Jap person, but you don’t start talking about someone like that and I definitely know my Korean so I was just like “excuse me, I’m not Jap” in Korean and I said it with this attitude. They shut up right there xD INFIDELS. I never mean anything bad since I don’t know them, but they just hate me for no reason, so whatever, screw them for being so judgemental.

I shall rant about asian PARENTS next time XD and we all know how they can be =____=

sidenote: asian guys in general are ok, they’re not as judgemental as the girls (girls got ISSUESS)…..although some are too feminine and some are too gangsta for my taste xD

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